I don’t feel like myself
I feel used and dirty
I feel exhausted
I feel nothing most of the times
Just this dark nothingness
Like a cloud always hovering over,
Drenching me in darkness
How to stop it?
I don’t know if I can
Everyday I live I inch closer and closer
To the thing I fear most
Someday soon fear will win
I will do it and lose my soul forever

My demons constantly, slowly killing me inside
I bear this dark emptiness within
It is spreading fast and vast in me
It will consume me whole
Coping mechanisms slowly getting worse and worse
Taking longer to fend off darkness
Sometimes they don’t
Blood is no longer the currency of the realm

Fear grows by the daily
Insatiable monster feeding my demons

Most nights I die a big part inside,
Some nights I don’t think I’ll make it,
All nights tears fill up my pillow